Stripping Back the Noise: Painting, Identity, and the Space Between Voices

Identity, Language, Peace, Symbology

The last few weeks in the studio I nearly restarted a painting three times.

That isn’t dramatic exaggeration. It’s simply the truth of what happens when you stop performing and start searching.

I began with symbols — figures, creatures, mythic structures, tunnels, spirits. The canvas filled quickly. There was narrative, atmosphere, ambition. It looked “interesting.” It felt active.

But something was wrong.

Not technically wrong. Existentially wrong.

The more I added, the more I could hear my inner commentator. The voice that analyses, compares, evaluates. The voice trained by years of business, leadership, and more recently, academic realism. It knows proportion, value, finish. It wants coherence. It wants authority. It wants to prove.

That voice is useful.

It is not my centre.

As the weeks progressed, I began removing elements. First the creature. Then the figures. Then the colour. Eventually I was left with a dark field and a single chair within the structure of a cross.

The moment I stripped it back, something shifted.

It felt more honest.

Look With Better Eyes……

Friendship, Peace, Symbology

I have lots of voice memos that I plan to do something with, and then I do nothing with them. But this is one I am actually using. I am recording it on my morning walk with Maui. It follows my first night sleeping in my new house here in Nardò.

Right now, it’s just my dog and me on our morning walk.

He is my companion. There are lots of things I could say about him, mostly that he’s a big lump. It’s silly, really. He knocks things over because he doesn’t seem to have any awareness of his own size. He sheds far too much hair. I spend minutes every day—actual minutes of my life—just vacuuming up after him.

It pisses me off. And yet, withal, here we are. Never mind the shedding. We are Walking.

And what does he do? He just lives. Give me a car, give me a tree, give me somewhere to pee, and I’m happy. That’s his philosophy. He loves the walk. He gets out of the house, and he just finds every smell compelling. He keeps walking and walking. And now we’re here, basically, in a field between a vineyard and an olive grove. And he’s eating grass. I read somewhere that dogs eat grass, and they can’t really do anything with it. They don’t digest it well. But apparently—I don’t know—it seems to help them. Maybe we could research that later. Is there a thing about dogs and grass? Who knows.

Anyway, the point is: here is the dog. The dog’s life is just getting up in the morning and getting some water. Suffering the heat or the cold—and it feels cold now that we have acclimatised to those hot summer temperatures. Going for a walk. He is never trying to control a damn thing. No strategising. He just takes it moment by moment. Day by day. His happiness is all included in those moments. He’s not lying around worrying about what tomorrow brings or what he did a minute ago.

An awakening

Mindset, Peace, Symbology

Finding My 16-Year-Old Self (and Nearly Dying Along the Way)

For my 60th birthday, I gave myself a gift—first-class flights to Bali, four incredible locations, and a promise to embrace adventure. It was a journey of contrasts: spiritual discovery in the mountains, diving into the deep, lazy sunsets on the beaches of the west and south, and taxi rides that took hours but felt like lifetimes.